Just so you know

These first few posts all have my name on them, but I'm not the one growing a baby. My friend is an amazing woman, and I've pestered her into sharing her story here. From here on out, she's going to be telling us about how it feels to be part of such a miracle for another family. I'm sure it's going to be filled with highs and lows. And Drea, all you have to do is write from your heart. It will tell the story better than anyone else ever could.
Love to you my dear friend, and thank you so much for sharing your journey with us.

Milli

Second betas

First betas about 150, second betas 315! My IP's were much happier after getting the second betas. It's Chinese New Year today and they did all kinds of celebrating. I'm glad they were able to kick back.

My mood has been all over the place. I'm sure my husband and kids are thrilled with me right now.

digtal test

Tomorrow is the big day! I caved and did my last hpt this morning. It was one of those digital tests that say pregnant or not pregnant.

Mine said PREGNANT!!! Can't wait to hear what the beta numbers are. Supposedly the higher the number the more likely you are to be carrying twins. There was one surrogate who had high betas and then found out at her 6 week u.s that there was only one. I suppose it is possible. I really hope my IM can sleep tonight. She's been through so much.

OK I'm off to bed. Very busy day tomorrow. I hope it all gets done AND we get our results with out having to wait.

it's so hard to wait

I got an email from my IM today. She did well trying to keep busy but she's pretty anxious and scared. I can't blame her though. This has been such a long and emotional ride for them both. Her hands are ice cold again.

Two more days until we find out for sure weather this is going to be the most exciting year for them. One that they have waited their whole lives for or if it's going to be the biggest disappointment. I can't even imagine how hard this will be for them if the beta comes back low or negative. I have one pregnancy test left and I'm afraid to take it in case it comes back negative.

I'm very happy to have plans tomorrow to keep busy. I have to take my car in to get the tires checked and start packing up my kitchen to get ready for the big reno. Wednesday is busy too. Betas in the morning, kitchen cupboards are coming in the afternoon. Hopefully not long after that I'll know the results.

Come on Wednesday!!

waiting

How long could these last few days possibly drag out??? In a much better mood today. Sun was shining all day, that's always a good sign.

not feeling too great. I suppose that's a good sign too! My IP's had a dinner party last night for IM's birthday. They had a great time. Drinking, eating and great conversation. I was SO happy that they had that distraction. I really wish I could tell them what's been going on with the hpt.

Oh well. I'll keep rubbing my belly. 3 more sleeps!!

mood swings

OMG I'm in a super pissy mood tonight. This has got to be pregnancy related! So a good sign right? If I'm this pissy it HAS to be a good sign!!! still 4 more days until my betas.

First signs

I'm not a patient person. I never claimed to be patient. I did a home pregnancy test (hpt) on Feb 3rd. Just 7 days past transfer. It was + very very very faint + in fact so faint that I didn't tell anybody about it until a couple of days later. I did another hpt the next morning. I was +. It was there and it was easy to see and I was thrilled!!!!!

I can't tell my IP's though. They have been through too much for me to tell them about these early tests only for it turn out to be bad news with the betas.

Friday I received an email from my IM. She told me it was her birthday on February 3rd. FEBRUARY 3RD!!! that's the day I got my first + very very very faint + hpt!!! this had to be a good sign right!?!?! this news I will share either after the betas are done or after I have my u.s. not sure yet but I will absolutely tell about it when I do.

and I wait again! four more days until my betas start.